An unexpected beginning - 2010

I think I have gone crazy. They say when you have a lot of time in your hands you end up thinking till you go mad. I probably have gone beyond that stage.

Its been almost 5 months I quit working for Bates. I moved to Melbourne and stayed most of the day in my apartment. I became more homely learning the ins and outs of maintaining a house. I thought I had learnt a new aspect of life, something that everyone should learn. Yet people around me saw my lifestyle as a waste time. Cooking, cleaning, reading books and getting to know a new country is not seen as a return of investment, reason being it doesn't generate money.

I would once ask myself, is money everything in life? It wasnt for me but thats no longer the case. The world revolves around money. People work like ants to earn a wee bit of income. Strange. And now I have started thinking of the same. The value of money in my life. It cant buy me happiness but it can buy me respect from others. It cant give me a smooth life, but it can give me indepence to choose my life. The power of money can change the mind of the strongest.

I am moving to Brisbane in mid Feb. I am scared. Very scared because I dont have a stable platform to stand on. I am alone. But my this year's resolution is to build that platform by shearly focusing on my goal. I want to free myself from being dependent. I have always been seen as an emotional person.. this year i want to be seen as a focused, smart and emotionless based person.

There is a phrase in hindi "chota insaan, badi baat (small person, big talk)". Right now writing all this seems really big talk for me but I have a strong urge to push this talk to reality. You can call this my new year resolution.

I hope this year helps me become stronger than ever.